Running.
Breath steaming, ragged gulps. Its not enough. Burning, my legs burn, my lungs burn.
Blank-out. Thats what I call it when I’m running so hard I can’t think, I can barely see. One. Beat. Two. Beat. Three. Beat… Beat. One… Thats all. Thats all the world to me right now. One; step, Two; step, Three; step… and repeat. Running. Lungs screaming for more.
Its not enough.
1-2-3- step. I do not look back, I do not think about whats behind, I only plan the next three steps. 1-2-3- step. My lungs cry out, my breath is irregular, gasping, clawing for more air. It’s not enough. Stumble-Stutter. Pain. My legs are falling apart, I push them faster. 1-2-3- step. Its not enough.
There is no finish line, there is only the next three steps, there is nothing in front of me, just the next three steps. My heart beat pounds in my head, my ears are filled with the sound of running, breath…step…beat. breath.step.beat. breath.step.beat. Faster. Faster, I push my legs, my lungs. Faster. Its not enough.
The sounds fill my ears now, behind me. Slapstep. Shouting. poundpoundpound. BANG! That one was a gunshot. Faster. onetwothreestep. Faster. step.step.breath.step. Irregular. Ragged. Faster. Its not enough. Yelling. Slapstep-pounding. Shooting. I’m at top speed, I can’t possibly go any faster.
Blank-out. Thats what I call it when I run so hard my body shuts down all other functions. Everything ahead of me is a blur, I don’t worry about whats ahead though. poundpoundpound. Steps echo here. Another BANG! I can’t tell how close or far away it is. All I hear is beat. breath. beat. step. Its not enough. Blood makes a rushing sound when your running, it moves faster in you head, I move faster and my blood rushes. My blood is at terminal velocity now. All I hear is my blood. BANG! Another shot. My blood is at terminal velocity and is warm, its hot. So hot it burns me. I look down now. My hot blood is leaving me at terminal velocity. I run. One. Beat. Two. Beat. Three. Beat… 1-2-3- step. breath. step. beat. step.
Blank-out. Thats what I call it when I can’t see anymore, when I can’t think any more. My vision is totally obscured now. A dark blanket covers my eyes. Its because my blood is moving so fast, it’s moving too fast. My blood is moving so fast because I am. I pour everything into it now, no reserves. My blood pours out of me now, no reserves. breath.step.beat. Faster. breathstepbeat. breathstepbeat. Faster.
Its not enough.
